“I don't understand what happened. It was a nightmare. I was tormented in my mind and in my spirit. My life was out of control at that time and I have nothing but regret for what I thought I was a soldier for the devil and all kinds of crazy things I had things like The Satanic Bible that I was reading. I just got stupid ideas out of it. I'm not pushing the blame on anything. I take full responsibility, but I just at the time things got twisted.”