“The attack was full of rage. I understand that rage. I’ve seen that rage in my father. I’ve seen that rage in me. Because I’m angry, he took off, he left us. But when I look at that anger, and I push it aside, just put it away, all I see is hurt. I see pain. I think it keeps me walled off, walled off from relationships and opening myself up, and, you know, really caring for someone, and I don’t know how to get past that. I don’t know how to get around that. And it worries me, and I don’t want to be that guy. I don’t want to be my dad.”