“So anyhow I began my new then when I stepped out of my life routine worn bare and deep as a cowpath across a meadow, climbed out of my rut, stopped listening to the news and Mary Tyler Moore. And strangely stopped drinking or smoking. The second I left my old life's cowpath, I discovered I didn't need a drink. It became possible to stand still in the dark under the oaks, hands at my sides and watch and wait...That's what I want to be able to do—to stand under the oaks and wait.”