Transcript of "A powerful poem about what it feels like to be transgender"

I wonder how long it will be before the trans suicide notes start to feel redundant, before we realize that our bodies become lessons about sin way before we learn how to love them. Like God didn't save all this breath and mercy, like my blood is not the wine that washed over Jesus' feet.

— Lee Mokobe, ted.com

LGBTQ+ Poetry Transgender Suicide Awareness

It had nothing to do with hating my body, I just love it enough to let it go, I treat it like a house, and when your house is falling apart, you do not evacuate, you make it comfortable enough to house all your insides, you make it pretty enough to invite guests over, you make the floorboards strong…

— Lee Mokobe, ted.com

LGBTQ+ Poetry Transgender Body Positive

my mother told me of the miracle I was, said I could grow up to be anything I want. I decided to be a boy... I was the mystery of an anatomy, a question asked but not answered, tightroping between awkward boy and apologetic girl.

— Lee Mokobe, ted.com

LGBTQ+ Poetry

I asked Jesus to fix me, and when he did not answer I befriended silence in the hopes that my sin would burn.

— Lee Mokobe, ted.com

Spoken Word LGBTQ+ Poetry God Losing Faith TED

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