“I have to do it you see? I have to push you away. Because I ruin every good thing that comes my way. I can’t ruin you. Not now. But I will never let myself get to the point where I can. So I’ve got end it you see? Because I can’t do it, I can’t hurt you. I love you so I have to. I have to and I’m so…”— Nicholas Gariepy, thelovejournals.com