But love was always something heavy for me. Something I had to carry.
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Benjamin Alire Sáenz
Benjamin Alire Sáenz (born August 16, 1954) is an American poet, novelist and writer of children's books. 2Life He was born at Old Picacho in Doña Ana County, New Mexico, the fourth of seven children, and was raised on a small farm near Mesilla, New Mexico. He graduated from Las Cruces High School in 1972. That fall, he entered St. Thomas Seminary in Denver, Colorado, where he received a BA degree in humanities and philosophy in 1977. He studied theology at the University of Louvain in Leuven, Belgium from 1977 to 1981. He was a priest for a few years in El Paso, Texas before leaving the order. In 1985, he returned to school, and studied English and creative writing at the University of Texas at El Paso where he earned an MA degree in creative writing. He then spent a year at the University of Iowa as a PhD student in American literature. A year later, he was awarded a Stegner Fellowshi
One summer night I fell asleep, hoping the world would be different when I awoke.
I decided that maybe we left each other alone too much. Leaving each other alone was killing us.
Maybe we just lived between hurting and healing.
People who have monsters recognize each other. They know each other without even saying a word.
I’m fighting myself. I know I am. One minute I want to remember. The next minute I want to live in the land of forgetting. One minute I want to feel. The next minute I never want to feel ever again.
Okay is just a word I use so I won’t have to talk about what’s inside. Okay is a word that means I am going to keep my secrets.