“That is the fear: I have lost something important, and I cannot find it, and I need it. It is fear like if someone lost his glasses and went to the glasses store and they told him that the world had run out of glasses and he would just have to do without.”Tagged: Death, Ending, End Of Life, Understanding Death, Trying To Understand
“People, I thought, wanted security. They couldn't bear the idea of death being a big black nothing, couldn't bear the thought of their loved ones not existing, and couldn't even imagine themselves not existing. I finally decided that people believed in an afterlife because they couldn't bear not to.”Tagged: Afterlife, After Death, End Of Life, Trying To Understand, Trying To Understand Death
“I go to seek a Great Perhaps.”Tagged: Ending, humanity, Questions, Life Questioning, Understanding Life
“I'd finally had enough of chasing after a ghost who did not want to be discovered. We'd failed, maybe, but some mysteries aren't meant to be solved. I still did not know her as I wanted to, but I never could. She made it impossible for me.”Tagged: Trying To Understand, Understanding Death, After Death, Love, Love After Death
“More than anything, I felt the unfairness of it, the inarguable injustice of loving someone who might have loved you back but can't due to deadness.”Tagged: Trying To Understand, Understanding Death, After Death, Love, Love After Death
“Suffering is universal. it’s the one thing Buddhists, Christians, and Muslims are all worried about.”Tagged: Trying To Understand, Suffering, Pain, Understanding Pain, Falling Apart
“You can't just make yourself matter and then die, Alaska, because now I am irretrievably different, and I'm sorry I let you go, yes, but you made the choice. You left me Perhapsless, stuck in your goddamned labyrinth. And now I don't even know if you chose the straight and fast way out, if you left…”Tagged: Who We Are, Defining Ourselves, humanity, Trying To Understand, Trying To Understand Death
“Before I got here, I thought for a long time that the way out of the labyrinth was to pretend that it did not exist, to build a small, self-sufficient world in the back corner of the endless maze and to pretend that I was not lost, but home.”Tagged: Trying To Understand, Suffering, Pain, Understanding Pain, Falling Apart
“When you stopped wishing things wouldn't fall apart, you'd stop suffering when they did.”Tagged: Trying To Understand, Suffering, Pain, Understanding Pain, Falling Apart
“'Sometimes I don't get you,' I said. She didn't even glance at me. She just smiled toward the television and said, 'You'll never get me. That's the whole point.'”Tagged: Trying To Understand, Love, Understanding The Opposite Sex, Understanding Love, Understanding Life
“I would never know her well enough to know her thoughts in those last minutes, would never know if she left us on purpose. But the not-knowing would not keep me from caring, and I would always love.”Tagged: Instant, Death, Quickness, Quickness Of Death, Explaining Death
“He was gone, and I did not have time to tell him what I had just now realized: that I forgave him, and that she forgave us, and that we had to forgive to survive in the labyrinth. There were so many of us who would have to live with things done and things left undone that day. Things that did not go…”Tagged: Instant, Death, Quickness, Quickness Of Death, Explaining Death