“No, I go upstairs in my room. I had a cross in my room. This was my last God moment. I looked at the cross and I begged God, 'Please, make it yesterday. Turn the clock back an hour. Who’s going to notice? An hour, and I won’t get caught. I won’t do it again.' I hear the cops and then I hear the cop car. My father comes in, and it was a nine-day beating. He told me that I was never allowed to be happy again, that I ruined the family, that I should never be happy again. A year later a bra commercial came on, he smacked me in the head, choked me.”