“I don't fear death and/or suicide. Whenever I get low I look at it as a very far off option if things don't get better. They always do so Im not worried about it. For me a quote from Neil Hilborn illustrates it best, "I think a lot about killing myself, not like a point on a map, but rather like a glowing exit sign at a show that's never been quite bad enough to make me want to leave.”