21 Real Life Heartbreaking Confessions Which Explain The Reality Of Living With Eating Disorders

21 quotes

I want to be happier and the only way to be happier is to be skinny. 

“This is what I really want. It's the one thing I want so bad. I just want to be thin. If it takes dying to get there, so be it. At least I'll get there.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating, Health

“If I died there would be nothing good to say about me. The only thing I did was change my body.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating, Health

“Today I had lunch with my family.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating disorders, eating, Health

“The biggest deception is that they think, if I just lose this weight people would be my friend.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Relationship With Self, Eating Disorder

“I told my mom, 'I'm not perfect yet,' she told me the perfect anorexic is dead.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating disorders, Skinny

“I started modeling so I had to be thin...So I went to the bathroom to throw up just because I wanted to be smaller...Then the owner of the agency took me into her office and said I needed to lose 5lbs in my face.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, Learning To Love Yourself

“Between March and December I went from 220 to 120 pounds. After growing up in a household where I was constantly told I need to be a certain weight. When I started to actually see results, I went overboard.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Food Relationships, Eating Disorder

“I always thought I was fat. It wasn't until recently when I pulled out an old photo album that I was like, Oh my gosh. I really wasn't fat. I've had a distorted view of myself pretty much most of my life.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, Health, Fitness

“I just feel like since I was 10 my eating disorder kept me from life. I would love to be a wedding planner one day.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, eating, Health

“I don't feel the my life is in danger. It's a fight for my sanity more than anything. The eating disorder is making me sick, and I'm ready to give it up, but I have nothing else in my life right now.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, Health

“I want to be happier and the only way to be happier is to be skinny.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, eating, Health

“I want to be so skinny that no one can ever say anything to me again about my weight.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, Health

“I can't believe I weighed 82 pounds. That's way too fucking much...I am quite possibly a fat cow. Why can't I stop eating? I feel so out of control!!!”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, Bulimic, eating, Health

“I believe my eating disorder is going to be with me for the rest of my life. But I've seen people get over the disorder and that's what I hope for myself. I use it as an inspiration every day.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Food Relationship, Eating Disorder

“The day you find something that you want even more than to be thin is the day you're capable of recovery.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Food Relationship, eating, Eating Disorder

“A personal trainer asked me if I wanted to do a fitness competition and I said yes...One day I binged and said, 'I don't know what to do,' so he told me to throw up. I've been bulimic ever since.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Food Relationship, Food Relationships, eating

“If they want me to lose weight, I'll just say, 'No No I'm not going back. F.U.'”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Food Relationship, Eating Disorder, eating

“I'm scared and lonely. Part of me wants to give up my eating disorder. And then a big part, the strong part doesn't...It's got the best of me. I'm a losing battle. I'm like a slave.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Food Relationship, Eating Disorder, eating

“I want my self esteem back. I deserve a good life. I'm going to be somebody my daughters are proud of.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Relationship, Food Relationship, Eating Disorder

“Even if you take away eating disorders, being a girl is always going to be one of the hardest things.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Food Relationships, Eating Disorder, eating

“The crazy things about eating disorders is that it's so hard to understand unless you have one yourself....People say 'just eat.' I can't.”

— Lauren Greenfield, amazon.com

Tagged: Eating Disorder, Awareness, Food Relationships