“My fear among people is that I will be judged for revealing what is going on inside me. I fear others will discover that I am not only imperfect; I'm not even okay. I fear that I truly am not okay.”Tagged: Social Anxiety, BPD, Mental Illness, Depression
“Like, what if you found out I am really not okay? What if you knew that I am suffering a lot right now and really scared? Would you flee? I don't want to find out.”Tagged: Social Anxiety, BPD, Mental Illness, Depression
“Good morning! Everything is shit! Time to act impulsively. But first let's start by getting into imaginary fights with people from the past. Next let's catalog everything that's wrong with you and your life. Also, I want to remind you of everything you don't have—and everything you should be scared…”Tagged: Anxiety, Depression, BPD, Overthinker, I Hate Myself
“Is anything more bullshit, kale-eating, juice-fasting contemporary American than the notion of self-love? "Be gentle with yourself, you deserve it." Do I really?”Tagged: I Hate Myself, BPD, Imposter Syndrome
“You are scared of containing multitudes. Why does it have to be all or nothing? Why are you just straight up good or straight up evil? What if you're a lovable douchebag? What if you are a heavenly asshole? What if you are a destructive beautiful person?”Tagged: BPD, Identity, Complicated People, Deep
“The truth is, distance and unavailability—flecked with short-lived, gorgeous IRL binges—were what made the drug-person so intoxicating. I wanted more of the drug-person than could ever be available. When I didn’t get a text, I was, as junkies say, sick. When I received a text it made me well. But it…”Tagged: Obsession, BPD, I Still Love You