This is what I really want. It's the one thing I want so bad. I just want to be thin. If it takes dying to get there, so be it. At least I'll get there.
Catalog
Lauren Greenfield
Lauren Greenfield is an American artist, documentary photographer, and documentary filmmaker. She has published three photographic monographs, directed four documentary films, exhibited in museums, and published in magazines and other publications. She is married to Frank Evers, with whom she has two sons, and they reside in Venice, California. 2Photography Greenfield graduated from Harvard University in 1987 with a B.A., majoring in Visual and Environmental Studies. Her Senior Thesis photography project on the French Aristocracy was called "Survivors of the French Revolution". This work helped kick start her career as an intern for National Geographic Magazine. A subsequent grant from National Geographic provided financial support towards her debut monograph, "Fast Forward: Growing Up in the Shadow of Hollywood" (Knopf 1997). Five years after the release of "Fast Forward", Greenfield produced a second major body of work about the self-esteem crisis amongst American women, entitled "Girl Culture". Greenfield's photographs have been regularly published in international publications, such as The New Yorker, New York, New York Times Magazine, The Sunday Times Magazine, Stern, The Guardian, Der Spiegel, La Repubblica, Time, Vanity Fair, People, National Geographic, ELLE, Harper's, Cosmopolitan, and Marie Claire. 2Museums and exhibitions Her photography, including entire bodies of work like "Fast Forward", "Girl Culture", and "THIN", is in many major collections such as the Art Institute of Chicago, Los Angeles County Museum of Art (LACMA), the J. Paul Getty Museum, the San Francisco Museum of Modern Art (SFMOMA), the Smithsonian National Museum of American History, the International Center of Photography, the Center for Creative Photography, the Museum of Fine Arts (Houston), the Harvard University Archive, the Smith College Museum of Art, the Clinton Library, and the French Ministry of Cultur
If I died there would be nothing good to say about me. The only thing I did was change my body.
Today I had lunch with my family.
I always thought I was fat. It wasn't until recently when I pulled out an old photo album that I was like, Oh my gosh. I really wasn't fat. I've had a distorted view of myself pretty much most of my life.
I just feel like since I was 10 my eating disorder kept me from life. I would love to be a wedding planner one day.
I don't feel the my life is in danger. It's a fight for my sanity more than anything. The eating disorder is making me sick, and I'm ready to give it up, but I have nothing else in my life right now.
I want to be happier and the only way to be happier is to be skinny.
I want to be so skinny that no one can ever say anything to me again about my weight.
I can't believe I weighed 82 pounds. That's way too fucking much...I am quite possibly a fat cow. Why can't I stop eating? I feel so out of control!!!