“Usually, I would pretend to be nice, but this morning I feel real, like myself. I feel high, almost like I’m tripping, and I couldn’t fake nice if I tried.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: pretending, kindness, faking
“I became lonely, so I drank a bit, and then a bit more, and then I became lonelier, because no one likes being around a drunk. I lost and I drank and I drank and I lost.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Drinking, Lonely, Drunk, Alcohol, Alcoholic
“I can’t sleep. I haven’t slept in days. I hate this, hate insomnia more than anything, just lying there, brain going round, tick, tick, tick, tick. I itch all over. I want to shave my head.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Sleep, Insomnia, Suffering
“I sit there on the floor with the picture in front of me and think about how things get broken all the time by accident, and how sometimes you just don't get round to getting them fixed.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: broken, Accidents, Fixing
“A familiar ache fills my chest. I have felt this way before. On a larger scale, to a more intense degree, of course, but I remember the quality of the pain. You don’t forget it.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Pain, Memories, Suffering
“Nobody warned me it would break us. But it did. Or rather, it broke me, and then I broke us.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: broken, Break Up, damaged
“I might never have the courage to say the words out loud, I might lose them altogether, they might stick in my throat and choke me in my sleep.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Courage, Words, Speaking
“I don’t believe in soul mates, but there’s an understanding between us that I just haven’t felt before, or at least, not for a long time. It comes from shared experience, from knowing how it feels to be broken.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: soulmate, Understanding, broken
“How much better life must have been for jealous drunks before emails and texts and mobile phones, before all this electronica and the traces it leaves.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: alcoholics, Drunk, Jealous, drunk texts
“The sense of shame I feel about an incident is proportionate not just to the gravity of the situation, but also to the number of people who witnessed it.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Shame, Embarrassment, witnesses
“I’d never realized, not until the last year or two of my life, how shaming it is to be pitied.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Shame, Pity, embarrassing
“Who was it said that following your heart is a good thing? It is pure egotism, a selfishness to conquer all.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Hearts, Ego, Selfish
“People you have a history with, they won’t let you go, and as hard as you might try, you can’t disentangle yourself, can’t set yourself free. Maybe after a while you just stop trying.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: History, Escape, humanity
“I’m playing at real life instead of actually living it.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: pretending, Life, Living
“Let’s be honest: women are still only really valued for two things—their looks and their role as mothers.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Women, Value, mothers, beauty
“There’s nothing so painful, so corrosive, as suspicion.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Pain, suspicion, damaging
“There’s something comforting about the sight of strangers safe at home.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Comfort, Strangers, Safe
“I have never understood how people can blithely disregard the damage they do by following their hearts.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Hearts, Damage, careless
“Sometimes I feel like seeing if I can track down anybody from the old days, but then I think, what would I talk to them about now?”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: old friends, Friends, Communication
“I am furious, nails digging into my palms, tears stinging my eyes. I feel a flash of intense anger. I feel as though something has been taken away from me.”— Paula Hawkins, amazon.comTagged: Anger, Feelings, emotions