“But he liked me. There was definitely something wrong with him.”Tagged: Anxiety, Crush, I Hate Myself
“I fear others will discover that I am not only imperfect; I’m not even okay. I fear that I truly am not okay. But most people who meet me never know that I am struggling. On the outside I am smiling. I am juggling all the balls of okayness: physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, existential.…”Tagged: Social Anxiety, Mental Illness, Okayness, imperfect
“There aren’t many ways to find comfort in this world. We must take it where we can get it, even in the darkest, most disgusting places.”Tagged: Self Care, Self love, Hedonism, dark side, Drugs
“To receive compassion means I am weak. And I am terrified of being weak.”Tagged: Weakness, vulnerability, Scared To Love, Defense Mechanisms
“Is it worth being so talented if you also have to suffer from a profound sensitivity that is intrinsically connected to your gifts?”Tagged: Artist, Creativity
“How much mental illness is "acceptable", and how much is going to be "too much"?”Tagged: Mental Illness, Stigma, Society
“Is anything more bullshit, kale-eating, juice-fasting contemporary American than the notion of self-love? "Be gentle with yourself, you deserve it." Do I really?”Tagged: I Hate Myself, BPD, Imposter Syndrome
“You are scared of containing multitudes. Why does it have to be all or nothing? Why are you just straight up good or straight up evil? What if you're a lovable douchebag? What if you are a heavenly asshole? What if you are a destructive beautiful person?”Tagged: BPD, Identity, Complicated People, Deep
“it is very easy to tell me you love me when it is over and you are thousands of miles away... could you love me at your front door? i don't think you could.”Tagged: Break Up, Heartbreak, Not Meant To Be Together, LDR, What If
“We were in a constant state of longing - almost touching.”Tagged: Crush, Almost Lover, LDR, I Miss You
“Even in my dreams, I knew we weren't right for each other.”Tagged: Toxic Relationship, Not Meant To Be Together
“When I am with you, I feel an extraordinary sense of hope... like I have been in the dark for a long time, and did not realize it until the light came on.”Tagged: Literary Sext, Hopeful, In love, The One, Romantic
“You're so beautiful, I want to throw a land mine into a wall of cinderblocks and paint your lips with the dust cloud.”Tagged: Literary Sext
“Where did I learn that to look old as a woman is bad?”Tagged: Growing Pains, Growing Old, Ageism, Vanity
“When you have low self-esteem, to be embraced at your most vile is a marvel.”Tagged: Growing Up Shy, I Hate Myself, Self-Esteem, Unconditional Love, Social Anxiety
“Death is fine, but dying itself - the inability to breathe, the final panic attack - is really scary.”Tagged: Death, Dying, Anxiety
“Is fake love better than real love? Real love is responsibility, compromise, selflessness, being present, and all that shit. Fake love is magic, excitement, false hope, infatuation, and getting high of the potential that another person is going to save you from yourself.”Tagged: Love, Crush, Infatuation, True Love, puppy love
“The truth is, distance and unavailability—flecked with short-lived, gorgeous IRL binges—were what made the drug-person so intoxicating. I wanted more of the drug-person than could ever be available. When I didn’t get a text, I was, as junkies say, sick. When I received a text it made me well. But it…”Tagged: Obsession, BPD, I Still Love You